As the semester has progressed, I have been confronting this dread I possess regarding picture stories. What I mean is, I enjoy / admire / am inspired by personal projects that other photojournalists have created. But the idea of pouring myself into something like that - the vulnerability there, where you have to pour yourself into people in order that they reveal themselves to you - I have been fighting with myself about whether 'I want to do something like that.' A part of me is really inspired to dive into an issue, into people's lives, and starting with
Staff, it's one of the things that I really love about being a journalist - getting to hear people's stories and getting to know them. Another part of me, however, doesn't relish all the 'extra' work that would go into something like that. The work I refer to is all internal and it can be so exhausting. I don't relish the work of having muffle the part of me that quakes in terror whenever I interact with most people, the part that anticipates the inevitable rejection by them that I 'know' most likely won't happen, but it's something that that I've carried around with me since I was 3, so it's hard to get over it. (Thank you to Hurn for his discussion about shyness!!!)
So, when I read "Throughout the world, photojournalists are working on personal projects. These are long-term, independent projects generally not subsidized by newspapers, magazines, or book publishers. They are often the projects that are closest to the photographer's heart; they can be the key to effective photojournalism and career advancement..." I groaned. (I have no choice!)
But then I read: "Every photojournalist can undertake an independent photographic project, but few do. You have to be self-demanding, self-motivated, and stubborn. You have to be willing to spend many hours, maybe years, on the project, and subordinate other pleasurable aspects of your life to it." Ah! So it isn't easy for anyone else! That's encouraging.
The thing I like best about Chapnick's chapter is how he described what people did to make their ideas happen. It doesn't take much to pique my interest, one my challenges is formulating that into something that more people would be interested in.